Narcolepsy & Trepidation

Chillin' like a villain has a whole new meaning to me. - It's being glued in front of the computer for 12 hours or more doing tons of work, dropping lbs of weight from lack of sleep, after 5 bottles of M150, with loads of paper work due on Friday, and students threatening to attend classes before Monday, more paper work due on the 17th and even more paper work due on the 24th. Oh shit! This is life and here it goes! It's brainfreeze just thinking about it. I need to take a walk, smell the flowers and catch my breath. My personal life is going down the drain - no friends, no time for booze + stimulants..... my old habits almost forgotten. I need a cigarette! I wonder whatever happened to the word, "chill."

The co-existence of drive + deadline(s) is torture. Life's a bitch! And payback's even bitchier!

It's narcolepsy in its severe form. I catch myself fading every now and then, or for a moment........

Trepidation! Trepidation! Trepidation! Trepidation! Trepidation! Trepidation! Trepidation! Trepidation! Geez..