Change

I’m about to make big changes in my life and although I’m excited and psyched about it, I’m also feeling a little scared. I’ve been in Thailand for over 6 years, working in the same school for 5 years and the thought of moving forward and exploring other options somehow makes me feel like pissing my g-strings.

When I left The Philippines 7 years ago, I wasn’t as apprehensive and scared as I am now. I didn’t have much on me, didn’t have my career planned, and didn’t have a proper direction in life but, I took a chance and got lucky. Of course, I also made good choices but, everything was mostly about luck.

Now at 27, I have more worries than a 50 year old widow. And I shouldn’t be worried because everything is planned and I’m given the chance to work in a business that I would co-own, instead of slaving it out in the mice lab working for someone else’s business. I understand that this opportunity doesn't always happen to 27-year olds. I do consider myself lucky. This is my chance to break free, to work for myself and own my time. I know, the first 2-3 years will be hard work but, I'm willing to work hard because failure is not an option for me. No pain, no glory. Besides, I've always worked hard for my bread and butter. The only difference is that I work for someone else. Soon, I will be working for myself.

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So why this strange feeling? I guess it's because of the changes that are about to take place. I'm about to turn my life 45 degrees and shift life to a new direction. It's a fresh start to something that has a high success potential. But the 'change' and the 'unknown' is scary. I guess, not only for me but, for everybody. I'm very different though because I am not afraid to try. I'm not afraid to make changes for the better. And I won't let my fears hold me back.

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Lastly, I won't be alone in this new adventure. Someone very dear to me whom I care very deeply is going to watch my behind as he says. I asked him if it was figurative or literal. He answered, "both."

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I look forward to that day where the big planned changes start to roll. I'm a little scared but, I'm very excited. Change is good. I welcome it!