I'm complicated. I'm easy going for the most part, until I decide to put my feet down about some things. I don't do it just to disagree or in order to get attention but, because it's a topic that means a lot to me, probably something very sensitive. I would defend my stand for as long as it takes others to see my point. I find it difficult to forget about the issue if I believe that it shatters 'the very core' or 'the foundation' of some things.
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When I agree to disagree I sometimes have a hard time finding my footing and striking a balance between my beliefs and the weight I put on certain issues and what others think about certain things. But I tend to agree to shove things under the rug because I want to preserve the status quo, while a part of me gets frustrated, unwilling to relent, finding it hard to completely bury the issue at the back of my mind. It nags like a bitch! Teasing, willing me not to forget. Being forgetful isn't always a bad thing you know. Some people with perfect memories [mammaries ? ^_^ ] could, in fact be cursed! Forgetting is a good idea really, especially because I don't want to lose faith on something beautiful and something that makes me truly happy.
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Being the stubborn person that I am, it means nursing an open wound, more importantly my bruised ego for awhile. No, I don't take it personally that others don't share my view on certain things but, it takes time for me to come to terms and be at peace with the opposing ideas and the inability to find a comfort zone in between.
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I confront myself in the end to learn to respect the beauty of disagreeing, the strength behind the conflicting ideas because it's not as important as other things, like relationships for example. Believe me, it's easier said than done! But as long as I'm willing to understand differences, accept and respect them, and live with them without being resentful..... it means that I've learned something.
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Love indeed conquers all.
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