Goodbye Thailand

Thailand was my home in the last six years, and soon it wouldn't be. I believe that I haven't completely processed or sorted out my feelings about leaving Thailand for good. Maybe because I'm excited about the changes in my life and I'm curious how things will turn out in the future.

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A lot of things happened in the last six years. I made good and bad choices. I made some friends who never seemed to value my sensitivity and individuality, constantly getting on my fce about stupid things; the very same friends who always stick by me when shit hits the fan, pulling me out of the grave with their beautifully manicured hands when everything inside me dies. It's ironic isn't it? What's poisonous today could be a cure tomorrow..... I fell inlove and had my heart broken. It was a disaster when it happened, but as soon as I was better I realized how strong I am, how stronger I had become, and I feel good about myself knowing that I could cope and that with the right choices things have a high probability of getting better in time. I even thank my lucky stars that things happened as they did because I wouldn't have met my bf and be with him right now if those things didn't happen. You see, life has all the answers, but it doesn't give it all to you in one day. I came to Thailand to escape from my family, and it's easily said than done. Independence came with a price and loads of responsibilities, such as doing the laundry and ironing, working for my bread and butter, and making sure that I had a roof over my head. But I had no time to pause and get scared or be logical about things. I did what I needed to do. Fate brought me to schools and classrooms. It was a blessing to be able to mold a child and influence their thinking and outlook in life. I will miss teaching, but I'm relieve that soon I will be self-employed because I do such a bad job in stomaching work politics.

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I guess, I'm rambling, but I just want to say goodbye to my life and friends in Thailand. Life is a journey. I'm walking a new path and starting a new chapter in a world full of adventures and possibilities.