2008

2008 was an interesting year for me. 2008 was a series of lessons. I've learned a lot about myself and life. I've learned that I'm not perfect, but I shouldn't feel bad that I'm not because it means that I can improve on some things. I've learned that sometimes it's better not to say anything at all if I have nothing good to say because once you say something, you can never take it back. And I've learned that it never pays to be a bitch, and that I need to be more careful with how I phrase my words. I realize that we can't always get what we want because the world and the people around us doesn't owe us anything. Life's a series of problems, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. Life is all about choices. In the end we choose. We all pay for our actions and the choices we make. We always pay! I've learned to let go. Lettting go is one of the hardest things in the world to do, but they say that if you love someone and he wants to go, you should set him free. If he comes back to you he is meant for you, but if he doesn't he was never meant to be yours. I've learned to love and take care of myself even more. Well, I plan on it anyway... because if I don't, noone else will. I've lost people that are dear to me; people who care about me; people who probably even love me. I had a quick mouth and there were times when I spoke without thinking. I was too opinionated and way too pushy to the point of being annoying. I can't undo what's been done. The past is the past, but I have an exciting future ahead of me in a world full of possibilities. I've learned a lot from the mistakes I've made this year. I want to think that life's a learning experience. If I learned something from my mistakes, then something good came out of it. And I think that if I take anger and self-pity off the equation......I have definitely learned from everything that has happened. I want to think that the bad experiences made me a better person, but in the end I still have to choose for I am solely responsible for my actions. A part of me wants to dwell in the past,but I'm teaching myself to let go, let things be. I realized that you can't force people to love you. All is fair in love and war. Life continues..... it goes on. I'm looking forward to the YEAR 2009. It opens opportunities for new beginnings. A chance to make better choices and better decisions. A chance to take resonsibility for the choices I make. See you in 2009. Party on! Live life..... It's a world full of possibilities.