My life has never been perfect or boring. It has always been full of pain and drama. My childhood years were too painful to contemplate. I never got along with my parents or my family because they hurt me in many different ways repeatedly, sometimes intentionally and most times with their best intentions in mind. The Filipino culture is very different from the Western culture. 98% of Filipino parents try to run our lives and control our lives.
Six years ago I ran away. I didn't want to keep hurting and I wanted to be happy. I flew to BKK, looked for a job, studied, made friends and lived life. The perfect life I was hoping for never happened. People hurt me along the way. Strangers hurt me. My friends sometimes hurt me. Even people close to me hurt me. Life's that way. Life isn't easy. Some days we're happy, and some days we're sad, or lonely. Sometimes, it hurts to breath, and I have to force myself to get out of bed everyday.
The last few days have been very difficult for me. But I'm trying to snap out of it and live life, take the blows as they come. Life's interesting, mysterious, and fun, but it can be mean, and full of pain too. I don't let life beat me. I don't give life the satisfaction of dimming the light in my eyes. I may cry or feel pain or hurt sometimes, but I know that it's not gonna be that way all the time. And even if it was..... I have a reason to keep smiling. I'm alive!
My life has never been perfect or boring. It has always been full of pain and drama. My childhood years were too painful to contemplate. I never got along with my parents or my family because they hurt me in many different ways repeatedly, sometimes intentionally and most times with their best intentions in mind. The Filipino culture is very different from the Western culture. 98% of Filipino parents try to run our lives and control our lives.
Six years ago I ran away. I didn't want to keep hurting and I wanted to be happy. I flew to BKK, looked for a job, studied, made friends and lived life. The perfect life I was hoping for never happened. People hurt me along the way. Strangers hurt me. My friends sometimes hurt me. Even people close to me hurt me. Life's that way. Life isn't easy. Some days we're happy, and some days we're sad, or lonely. Sometimes, it hurts to breath, and I have to force myself to get out of bed everyday.
The last few days have been very difficult for me. But I'm trying to snap out of it and live life, take the blows as they come. Life's interesting, mysterious, and fun, but it can be mean, and full of pain too. I don't let life beat me. I don't give life the satisfaction of dimming the light in my eyes. I may cry or feel pain or hurt sometimes, but I know that it's not gonna be that way all the time. And even if it was..... I have a reason to keep smiling. I'm alive!
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Words are permanent. Sometimes we say something we wish we can take back. Think before typing or saying anything. I've said some uncool things when I was emotional. I've changed. I've learned my lesson. Have you?
Ivy
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